A common complaint from Mormons about people like me, who have left the Mormon Church, is “They can leave the church but they can’t leave it alone.” This comes from Joseph Smith and has been repeated and expounded on by LDS Leaders since then. Here are some quotes on this topic, including a LDS Scripture:
Cursed are all those that shall lift up the heel against mine anointed, saith the Lord, and cry they have sinned when they have not sinned before me, saith the Lord, but have done that which was meet in mine eyes, and which I commanded them.
Church members will live in this wheat-and-tares situation until the Millennium. Some real tares even masquerade as wheat, including the few eager individuals who lecture the rest of us about Church doctrines in which they no longer believe. They criticize the use of Church resources to which they no longer contribute. They condescendingly seek to counsel the Brethren whom they no longer sustain. Confrontive, except of themselves, of course, they leave the Church, but they cannot leave the Church alone. (Neal A. Maxwell – Ensign, Nov 14,1980)
It seems that history continues to teach us: You can leave the Church, but you can’t leave it alone. The basic reason for this is simple. Once someone has received a witness of the Spirit and accepted it, he leaves neutral ground. One loses his testimony only by listening to the promptings of the evil one, and Satan’s goal is not complete when a person leaves the Church, but when he comes out in open rebellion against it. (Glenn L. Pace – General Conference 1989)
I love it when people who don’t know me say I’ve been deceived by Satan and have followed his evil guidance; even better when people hear “The Lord’s Anointed” (that’s what Mormon Church leaders call themselves) say it and believe it.
Mormons largely believe people “can’t leave the church alone” because those whom have left really know the church is true and they have to continually talk about it to convince themselves they made the right decision by leaving. Umm, fast and testimony meetings, anyone? (Mormons are encouraged to bear their testimonies of how their church is the only true church on the earth, Joseph Smith was a prophet and the Book of Mormon is true, on the first Sunday of each month AND at the end of every lesson they teach in church). The other reason is Mormons believe those who have left were tricked by lies or “anti-mormon” material on the internet and it has pissed them off, so they become obsessed with it. There are other reasons but these two cover the main points.
Yes, those are generalizations and some Mormons are more educated than what I’ve just described but from my experience, those people are rare.
Let’s look at why some Ex-Mormons “Can’t Leave It Alone:”
- The Mormon Church Won’t Leave Us Alone
- Long History of Whistleblowers in Mormonism
- Spent a Lifetime of Service, Dedication and Sacrifice
- Every Ex-Mormon a Missionary
- Could Mormons Be Obsessed With Ex-Mormons?
The Mormon Church Won’t Leave Us Alone
Virtually every person who leaves Mormonism has family, friends and daily acquaintances that are still very active in the religion. This creates a constant exposure to a belief system that you now oppose in many ways. Plus, the LDS Church is very missionary minded, as we all know. Not only do church members focus on getting their non-mormon friends and family into their church but they also turn their attention and “love” to those whom have left. This becomes a consistent and sometimes overbearing presence from the Mormon community that you are trying to separate yourself from. Many Mormons have a hard time separating their lives and relationships from their religion.
Long History of Whistleblowers in Mormonism
Since the inception of the Mormon church with Joseph Smith, there have been whistleblowers. These are not just anti-mormon detractors from the outside but people who were a part of the organization, sometimes in very high positions of leadership, like William Law who was Joseph Smith’s Second Counselor in the First Presidency of The LDS Church. These whistleblowers have been around because the Mormon church and its leaders have always utilized revisionist history (translation process of Book of Mormon, Restoration of the Priesthood, Accounts of the First Vision), had secretive practices (polygamy, temple, Council of 50) and it was built on the testimony of one man, Joseph Smith, whose character could be called into question given his actions from his treasure hunting days to his death in Carthage Jail, after he destroyed the Nauvoo Expositor printing press and practiced polygamy in secret.
Any organization that has beliefs and practices that can be viewed as harmful, deceitful or false by an individual or group of people, whistleblowers will appear. This is the case with government, fortune 500 companies and religions. The LDS Church is not beyond reproach, with its view and handling of women, non-white people, LGBT individuals, private finances and its governmental influence through the organization itself and its members. Until the Mormon church decides to abandon its revisionist history and become a transparent organization in terms of belief, practices and finances, there will always be whistleblowers. I am proud to be one.
Spent a Lifetime of Service, Dedication and Sacrifice
I spent my entire life as a Mormon. It’s unlike most other religions, in that it requires a tremendous amount of your time and finances. It’s not just a belief; it’s a lifestyle and community with singular focus on eternal salvation through faith and deeds. I’ve made substantial sacrifices for my belief. I served a 2-year mission in Las Vegas when I was 19 years old (I’m the tall goofy guy in the white shirt and tie). My parents, most siblings and all my friends were not permitted to see me get married. I’ve missed out on some incredible relationships because “they didn’t have my same morals” or were not Mormon. I’ve paid tens of thousands of dollars to an organization that used my money to “build its kingdom” through temples, church buildings and other ventures, in the name of “The One and Only True Church of God.”
I’ve referenced the grieving process someone goes through when they leave Mormonism. It’s real. You are losing a key part of your identity and it hurts. You have to work your way through those steps and one of them is Anger. You’re incredibly upset about a lifetime of dedication and sacrifice for a belief you no longer have and even view as dishonest and harmful in many ways. We are human and should be allowed to grieve. There is no timetable for this process. Each person is different. Many want to get past each stage quickly so they can “move on” but there are variables and factors that are out of the person’s control which will dictate the time frame. It helps to have friends and family be sensitive, understanding and supportive during this transition.
Every Ex-Mormon a Missionary
Growing up in the LDS Church I was taught, “Every Member a Missionary.” This is one of the Three-Fold Missions of the LDS Church – Proclaim the Gospel. I became very comfortable and confident in discussing my belief with anyone, especially after serving a 2-year mission.
I’m no longer Mormon but I’m still quite comfortable discussing my views and beliefs. It’s very natural for me and religion still remains one of my favorite topics. Why would I not want to talk about how and why I changed my beliefs in such a dramatic way? I’m pretty awesome, my story is incredible and I imagine everyone wants to hear it. (OK, that was pure sarcasm, please don’t stop reading because I sound like an asshole…)
Actually, a friend of mine, Shanna Gardner, said something that rang true for me and I’m going to quote her because I can’t say it as eloquently (Yes Shanna, I’m even using the quote feature for you!):
When I was in the church I remember wondering why people couldn’t just leave, drop it and move on. But once you leave you finally understand why they can’t. It’s just like if a family member had a serious illness; you’re affected by that illness and become passionate about it just by association even though you don’t have it. Same goes for the church. When family members are constantly involved with the church, talking about church issues, inviting you to church functions and you’re witnessing loved ones involved in the same activities you now believe are harmful, it’s hard to just drop it. Like I said, it almost becomes a bigger passion than when you yourself were in it.
I love that analogy.
Another reason you become an Ex-Mormon Missionary is because of something one of the recent Mormon Prophets, Gordon B. Hinckley said:
If people you loved were involved in something you firmly believe is built on a lie and is a fraud, as Gordon Hinckley said, why would you not tell them? If you believed an organization was harmful and detrimental to society and true happiness in many ways, why would you not want those closest to you out of it? You would. It’s almost a daily struggle for Ex-Mormons to hold back and respect the beliefs of their active Mormon friends and family. It’s a double edged sword in that you love them, so you respect their beliefs but you love them, so you want them to see the truth.
Could Mormons Be Obsessed With Ex-Mormons?
Many people were shocked when I left the LDS Church. (To be fair, some weren’t) They made comments like, “He gave such great talks and lessons in church” or “His testimony seemed so strong” or “He was A.P. on his mission, what happened?” Active Mormons have to go through their own process in accepting their friend or loved one as having left Mormonism. It can be painful for them too. It can even become an obsession. I have people close to me who have spent months trying to figure out why I have left and what lead me down this path. Some of the speculations and opinions they have can be quite hurtful, when expressed or discovered. I’ve had people spend hours with me via phone, email or social media, trying to understand or even talk me out of leaving. I’ve had people form a little support group, of sorts, to discuss my beliefs, actions and direction in life, to a great degree. Even writing pages and sending it to me, in hopes that I’ll see the light, so to speak. I could further speculate as to why this has happened but I’d be guilty of doing what they’ve done to me….. Does telling you this make me sound narcissistic? I’m sure it does but it’s the truth.
In closing, I will direct this common phrase back to Mormons:
SOME PEOPLE WILL LEAVE THE CHURCH BUT YOU CAN’T LEAVE THEM ALONE.